December 8, 2010
My Thankful Thursday post was not a hard one to write. I didn't have to sit and think about what I was thankful for this week. What I am thankful for has been on my mind for a while now.
I am thankful that God is all seeing and all knowing. He has a plan for us all. That includes me and whatever happens to me. Not long ago, someone came back into my life that really bothers me. Not bothers me in a bad way, but in a way that I'm not sure I can trust this person or their motives. I don't know exactly if this person is sincere in starting a friendship with me again (our past has a lot of craziness in it), or if this person wants something more from me in time.
I don't have any financial way of helping this person, and I don't think they need it. All I can invest in this relationship is my emotions. That is something I am working on trusting God with. I am trying my hardest to leave it all in His hands. To let Him lead me and to just be the kind of person God wants me to be. This is Hard! I am trying to be hospitable and kind, but under everything is that nagging feeling of having to be careful of my feelings. Also that I have to walk on egg shells around this person. I'm just not sure of anything when it comes to this. The only thing I can be sure of is God's plan for me. I know He loves me and only wants the best for me, but I have also given myself to Him knowing full well that He will use me to help others too. I can only trust in Him.
This week I am thankful that I have such a loving God, who only wants the best for me. I will continue to pray about this, and ask that you remember me in your prayers also. This is a problem that can torment me if I let it. Luckily I am trying to leave it in God's hands.
To share what you are thankful for on this fabulous Thursday, head on over to Grace Alone and link up with my friend Iris!